God's Doing Something

I have a new awareness.
It's an answer to a prayer I've prayed off and on for a long time - to have His Eyes and Ears, His Mind in day to day matters.
A good prayer, sure.

But like we've all heard before...be careful what you ask.

I think, in abandonment, in surrender, there's a real defining moment in our walks with God if we're "careful" to ask and then don't.
Sure, we "may not be ready" for God's answer.
But being careful smacks, just a bit, of "I'm in control" - which I certainly am not!

Anyway, He's giving me an awareness of why I live like I live. I have cut a lot of things out of my life in the last 10 years. But I've taken on a lot that just doesn't add up to much - or worse, doesn't really honor Him.

Conviction?
Yes.

Nice comfortable place afterwards...."ah, I found peace with God... I can rest now"...?
No.

There's more to unpack...to understand...to give to Him.
It's uncomfortable.
It's forcing me to trust Him like never before.

Trust...
It always comes back to trust - at least for me.